wow what has gotten into me?

wow! I am feeling oddly sentimental today. It has to be because with my normal blog surfing I have come upon some very inspirational blogs. Those who have lost little children to illness or accidents, miscarriages, etc. I think of those people that are going through these trials and am in awe. They are amazing. My heart aches for them, for I cannot think of anything worse than that. These people find hope and comfort in these trials and stand strong with faith in their hearts. It makes me think about mine own life. Would I be able to do it? I think about my own mother losing one of her precious children to a heart defect and how hard that must have been. She is amazing, I never give her enough credit. I truly am grateful for all that I have. My beautiful children, strong and capable husband, amazing and supportive family. Lately I have felt weighed down by the normal "stuff in life. You know finances, potty training, etc. Letting the world and all the crazy stuff in it get to me and thus not treating those around me--especially my husband, as he seems to be the one that I usually take stuff out on--with the love and respect that I should. I love these moments--a reality check ,if you will, from the lord. A realization of my blessings-all of them- well not all of them because as human being I will never begin to understand all that the lord has blessed me with. But I need and feel blessed to have these moments to take a step back and gain a new perspective.
On a different note I will be better about blogging and updating all the crazy things that have happened lately. Still trying to find my memory card to my camera, brighton truly is the best at hiding things sometimes. Oh and bookclub ladies--you know who you are-- I have started reading my book-A girl named zippy. You better get going because this book is so funny skimming over it will not do it enough justice!

Yikes!

Okay I know I am bad with blogging lately but brighton has put my memory card somewhere I just have to find it. but anyways have tons of zuchinni from my garden and just made some yea did not turn out that good. So wondering any of you out there have a good one? If ya do let me know I really want some yummy bread!

mommy poop on ground...its gross

five little words make my heart just about stop. I am in ez's room feeding him and just about to put him down for a nap. I quickly set him in his crib and run to brighton's room. No nothing there, the bathroom is next. I am praying oh please let it be the bathroom at least everything there is bleach safe and scrubbable. Nope my luck is not that good, nothing there. Okay my room, I walk in and the smell hits me. CRAP literally crap. Brighton walks in behind me and points to my side of the bed, yes at least I can throw away these sheets. Nope there it is on my side of the bed but on the floor two distinct smelly, gross blobs of poop. I hate these moments when you are the mom, and you realize that you have to clean it up. Yuck! After about five minutes of profanities in my head 15 sprays of 409 carpet spray ,and what seemed like million paper towels the stain is still there but at least it doesn't stink anymore. Then I look around because something still stinks, and oh now I want to scream but I can't because ez is still taking a nap. Yea he stuck my phone charger in the poop, now I have poop stained carpet that smells like 409 and one stinky phone charger. Shit.

Bear Lake!

Oh Bear Lake was so much fun! Seriously I've only been there a few time but never to the north shore. There is just a sandbar for about 250 ft of water only up to your knees and the water was warm! We went swimming at 5:30 in the evening and both my boys were running( in ez's case crawling) for a few hours without getting cold. The picture above is so cool thanks to my awesome sister in law kamilla she also too also the other pictures because of course I forgot my camera what else is new?

Brighton loved playing in the sand and a bunch of kids before had built all these little sand castles. Brighton of course got sand all over.

Grandma beth with ez. A bunch of people forgot swimming suits-including matte- but no worries everyone was still able to wade in the water.
Ez loved the sand a little too much. After he got one taste of it I had to take him out of the water because he just kept wanting more. Thanks to the bells for an awesome weekend!

Is it that bad...yes it is. I am obssessed.

Seriously I knew I shouldnt read this book because I do tend to get a little obssessive when I do. But I was pushed over the edge when my best friend said I just had to read them. Oh yes and I read them. I read all three books in 5 days. Count that just 5. My husband was just about to kill me from ignoring him--sorry about the honey--Honestly its a little bit embarrassing to admit it but I cannot wait for the last one to come out. I was at costco today and they the third book on sale and there was a special excerpt in there for the breaking dawn and I almost considered buying for just a second. Well just one little tiny second and yea I know the whole book comes out tonight but I want read it right then. Too bad I had my kids with me or else I probably would have. Yup just read this post and it is confirmed I truly am a dork!

So Cal!!!!

Cali was so much fun! I love my fam and it was so good that we could all get together and finally have an awesome vaca it gets so crazy now that most of us are married with kids. Anyways the pic above is of Balboa Park its cool its not actually a park but a bunch of different muesems, we only went to the train one because of brighton and his cute cousin zach. But its all these old buildings with way cool architecture--definetely recommend to anyone.

Found this way cool mexican restaurant and it was so yummy. Thanks again Dad. Oh above that is my little bro jesse and my sis des with her husband scott. My sister is so cute she is 7 months pregnant and they are having a boy yay!

We went to the beach so much. I was worried because most of you who know brighton know that he is crazy and has now fear when it comes to water. Well this was no different but he did not like the salt water on his face so we were lucky on that one.

Falling asleep in church

Okay I just wish I would have had at least my phone -so I could take a picture- with me today at church. Normally sacrament meeting which is last is a total struggle to keep my kids quiet. Well I came in after I got ezra asleep and Brighton was just playing under the bench with his cars, something he always does, but usually he moves onto trying to escape from us underneath the benches. Well this week matt turns to me and says bri is totally asleep. Oh yea that kid can sleep through anything and he did. He was on his stomach totally asleep. Now here is the greatest thing we picked him up put him in the car, drove home, and put him on the couch and he still slept for another hour. All while I made dinner. I guess all we need to do from now on to keep our kids from being noisy in church is run them ragged all weekend long. Who would have thought?